It has been a while since my last post, January in fact. I have missed writing, though life has been very busy and it was easy enough to just let blogging and writing slip to the side.
Right now I’m exhausted, though somehow I feel compelled to write – even if I do not know how or when I will finish this post!
In the last 3 weeks I have had only one day off work, and as you can imagine, life has got rather chaotic in the process.
Running a business alongside my husband, taking on extra event work on weekends, working a second job, being a Mum, “attempting” to stay on top of the washing and cleaning pile, and remembering to take a moment to breathe in among it all!
It has been almost a month since I have completed a full grocery shop for our house, finding only time for a few top up shops when I can.
My patience wore thin days ago, and it seems as we get more exhausted, the kids tempers begin to rise and they test their boundaries and commence on a long stream of tantrums.
I have found myself lying on the kitchen floor in pure exhaustion more than once.
Though in among all the chaos and rushing and stress, I have found calm. I guess I have had to.
Over the years, I have learnt the hard way that whilst I see myself as a people person, I need the odd moment alone, just by myself to recharge my batteries. I think in my job especially, where I am serving hundreds of people a day, I take on too much of their energy, and a times that can leave me very drained.
So I need to find calm- and it needs to be only in a short space of time, it really is not as hard as it sounds.
Just a moment stepping outside can do the world of good, above are all photos I have taken recently from my own yard. Once you take the time to open your eyes to all the wonderful things around you, it is amazing what you can find.
Reading a bit of my library book at the end of each day (if I can) helps me relax, so does any little activity such as arts and crafts that I do not need to prepare much or think much (like drawing).
Making myself a cuppa and forcing myself to sit down to drink it can recharge the batteries.
Going for a walk to the park with the family.
Though one thing I have done recently that is new to me is just being.
Getting to that point in which you do not want to do anything, talk to anyone, read anything or think about things. All you want to do is simply just sit, and be.
Sometimes it is hard when everyone else around you wants a piece of you and wants to chat, and sometimes it is impossible to find a quite place just for yourself, but the moments that I have done this, it has helped greatly.
Silently sitting in the one spot, being mindful taking deep breathes and taking the moment to just be calm.
Well I have to rush now, need to wake the kids up, and deal with all the other rushes of the day, I am hoping that the double shot coffee I just had propels me along for a while before I need my next caffeine hit.
I do not really have the time to proof read this post, and I fear in my sleep deprived haze it may only make sense to me, but I’m hitting publish anyway.
Take care everyone, and I hope that whatever Chaos is currently being thrown at you in your life, you are able to find some Calm, even if it is just a moment.