2012 – The year of Growth

As we near the end of another year, like the lovely Deb from An Inspirational Journey, I find myself reflecting back on the  past year.

It sure has been a big year in our house, filled with many ups and downs.

More than once the words “are you kidding me?” were uttered as life dealt us another of what seemed like endless hurdles.

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At the end of 2011, I commented on this blog how excited I was for a brand new year. I had a feeling that it was going to be an excellent year for my little family. A few times I have thought back to that statement and wondered how I could be so wrong.

The year started with our biggest renovation stage yet of our house. It was “supposed” to take 3 or 4 months. It was a HUGE, dusty, dirty, noisy process, still not completely finished, but very close, and something that I am so proud of. I now know the true meaning of “blood, sweat and tears”

I completed my 365 moments of Gratitude Project in April, something which I feel very blessed to have done, I really feel that it assisted in allowing me to look at the wonderful, simple things in everyday life. I  will enjoy looking back on this project for a long time.

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The irony was not lost on me however, when 2 months later I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, which has been, and continues to be  a long, hard road for me.

I also had a few other health problems along the course of this year, most of which I am thankful to announce are no longer an issue in my life.

This year we took in our teenage niece, it was hard and definitely filled with many challenges. Unfortunately the arrangement didn’t work out either, and after 8 months of having her in our home, she ran away.

Taking her in led to some really hurtful things being said about us and to us by others, and unfortunately the same occurred when she decided she no longer wanted to live with us.

It is hard when you feel that you are giving to someone else and door is shut in your face in return – but that is life.

2012 has been for me a  year of “letting go”. There is only a certain amount of tears you can cry for the things that the haters say about you before you decided that enough is enough.

Along with therapy and the help of beautiful friends, I finally became more assertive, and able to walk away from negative people, beliefs, thoughts and comments that no longer served me for good.

It was not an easy thing to do, but I did it!

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Enough of the negatives, some great things were the fact the Noah started Kindy this year and Kiara started Prep. With the aid of both being blessed with amazing teachers, they both developed in leaps and bounds, something I am very proud of, and as always, am just happy as long as they are doing their best.

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Through school, we got to meet some beautiful families, and have made some lovely new friends, one of the perks of having kids is the wonderful people they bring into your life.

I was  this year and will always be thankful for the amazing friends my family have, we have all been so well supported and encouraged by some wonderful people during the rough patches this year. When it would be so easy to walk away from other people’s dramas, we had an army of supporters ringing, texting, writing, emailing or just visiting.

I also thank each and every one of you “strangers” who have commented or liked any of my posts over this year, while I have never met many of you, your support and kind words never went unnoticed.

You angels are people that we will always be very thankful for having in our lives. There were days in which we wondered what we had done to deserve all this chaos in our lives, and then you wonderful people made us remember that we must have done something pretty good to have you as friends as well!

Too many times my husband and I have said to each other

“2012 has been a shit year”,

but now, I realize it hasn’t been a shit year, it has been a year of growth, a year of learning, it has definately been a trying year, but when it all boils down, here we all are at the end of 2012, a family of 4, just as we were at the beginning, we are continuing to learn, to create memories together, to rejoice in the blessings life brings us, big and small.

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