Counting My Blessings

This year has been filled with ups and downs for me, though I guess that is just life isn’t it?

It has been filled with change, challenges, lessons, growth, tears, laughter and more. To sum it all up, I would be best to describe this  year as one huge emotional and mental roller coaster.

Despite the anxiety attacks, the down times, the moments of feeling utterly overwhelmed, I am so thankful for my beautiful friends  and family whom have lifted me up when I was not strong enough to walk.

My husband for his words of support, for simply sitting and listening to me, for ringing countless times during the day from work to see how I was doing, for the constant words of “are you ok”. For holding me tight when my anxiety attacks reached their peak, for seeing me under all that doom and gloom.

For my kids, two little beings giving me a reason to crawl out of bed, even when I didn’t want to. For the little hugs and kisses and simple words of “I love you”, when those three words were exactly what I needed to hear. For continuing to dance and sing and rejoice at life for me when I felt it was a pain to even smile.

I am thankful for my niece,  who forgave the moods that I had, who understood that having a teenager in the house was new to me, and accepted that I was just as inadequate in my new role as she was.

For my beautiful friends, who have shown me what treasures I have found by having them in my life. Little gifts, phone calls, texts, emails, letters, just simple words of “I am here if you need me”. No matter how much of a hermit I made myself, no matter how far my smile disappeared, they stood by me, and knowing I had a cheer squad standing on the side lines when I needed it the most was a huge booster. I feel that I will never be able to repay the kindness and compassion that these wonderful people have shown me, but I am so very, very thankful to have them in my life, you know who you are beautiful people.

For the Doctor, who saw me weekly, and never once told me that my feelings were ridiculous, for him pushing me out of my comfort zone of thinking, for pushing me to become a better, stronger person.

For my dogs, whom I neglected for a bit, forgot to say hello to  and interact with, but loved me regardless. I found a slice of peace again by chilling out in the hammock out side, with them laying beside me. I remembered how beautiful it is to just sit and pat an animal, to have a touch that will help them doze off into a blissful slumber.

I am thankful for those people who have connected via my blog, I have “met” some really inspiring people online, from all corners of the globe, from countless backgrounds and experiences, but you have all renewed my faith in humanity and the kind hearts you have. I have really been touched by the sharing of your personal stories with me, the knowledge that none of us are alone, and together we can get over any hurdle.

And then there are the “things” I am grateful for: coffee, good food, sunny days, cool breezes, the beach, smiles from strangers, an outfit that makes you feel great, tears that heal my soul,  hope, faith and courage.

There really is so much to be grateful for,

So much to look forward to.

And so many people I feel blessed to have been touched by, to each and every one of you:

I thank you

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