I have just deleted my original post for this weeks challenge, it was long winded, disjointed and in the end even I could not understand it!
I do have to say that this weeks challenge was a timely one, definitely one that came useful in the week I have just had.
In a recent post of mine, I explained how I feel that I have finally come to a point in my life where I accept myself for exactly who I am, all the quirks and traits that make me the person I am.
While this is true, I still think I am rather hard on myself with the expectations I lay on myself, mostly on a daily basis.
I get to the end of the day and berate myself for not ticking off all the things on my list, the fact that I have gone to bed with a couch filled with unfolded washing, or that I was so tired that we have not eaten anything more fancy then scrambled eggs on toast or sausage rolls and salad for dinner for the last few nights.
Its motherhood and managing a house that I find are the areas in which I am so hard on myself, I feel lazy, unmotivated and not so up to the job at times.
This week was so great, as I used the challenge as a reminder to whisper to myself throughout the week:
“I am enough”
Soon enough those words started to have the desired effect.
I am not superwoman, and no one (including myself) should expect me to be.
I make mistakes like everyone else, but this is always a great way to learn.
At the end of each day, there is always the knowledge that no matter how bad it went, or how many things went wrong, there is always tomorrow, a clean, fresh slate to try again.
So this week I went to bed earlier, to read and relax before sleep.
I chose to play with my kids over housework (though with the current renovations, housework was pretty useless anyway!).
I reminded myself that I was human, and it was ok to be down at times, to be tired, to be drained, it was ok to listen to my body even if there was a millon things that were screaming to be done or sorted.
Amongst all this, those three simple words “I am enough” provided me with lots this week, the reminder that even if I am not like others, even if I feel like a failure at times, I am not:
I am enough